Showing posts with label lightening flashes. Show all posts
Showing posts with label lightening flashes. Show all posts

Sunday, April 19, 2015

Goodbye.




Never say goodbye.
As the rain falls, silvering a field green with wheat. As small drops on a breeze sift onto the back of your neck, refuse.

The goodbye wells up in my heart, thrusts itself forward for notice, and the sky weeps for me. This melancholy strokes my soul with a meaningful fingers and says....what?
That it is time?
That old things must change?
No, the rain sings a many-tongued song but it is not that. The meaning lies just beyond my reckoning but the body needs no words to feel the import of this painful pleasure. Have you ever worked till blisters form? A hot, swollen testament to purpose, a work completed.
Well done, old girl, well done.

This rain blisters me. Under old callouses a new but familiar pain forms, swelling to the chafing of the true things it flings earthward. A cardinal flaunts on a gaunt pine-branch and its small voice is as sharp and acid-sweet as the rain: a goodbye that won't come.

Train-song drives upwind, iron wheels hammering the same tune. Away, away, away, away. How I want to reply, "I will away with you!"
But I can't. Never say goodbye to good things. To good friends. To best times. I never do. How could I?

Harder, fleeter, faster fall the raindrops. The pain intensifies, becomes sweeter and firmer in its vintage. Goodbye, goodbye!
I could say it. If my soul was more tender or a deal harder I could say that dolorous word, goodbye. But I think that if I hold onto Them, those things I cannot set free, They will stay. Goodbye would be easy if I did the leaving. But while the song drums "away," it is a gypsy-call for Them. Those things I feel I must keep. The song has two words...
"Remain," is mine.

Like rain, my word spreads feather-light mist over my eyes and soul.
Let them away. You remain here, for here is your place. Say goodbye.
But I cannot. Never say goodbye. Goodbye is a severe word. If they go away, who promises I will see them again? Who promises I will not remain obedient and empty-handed and absent-hearted?

A train shouts through the mizzle: away, away, away, away.
And again.
And again.

I shiver. A divisive pleasure and pain this is, though as dusk falls I have learned its tongue, dividing my will in shards of yes and no.
Remain.
I will. I believe and trust it is right.
Away. Give them away.
But can I? Greater than a fear of tangible evil is the thought of being left behind, forgotten, shrugged out of like a coat They once loved but grew too large for. Must we keep growing? Can we not stay as we are? Remain young and safe so They will never have to give me away? I would like that. We could walk in this rain together and balance on the tracks along the railroad and staunch its song. Never have to say goodbye. We could all stay. Would that be so wrong? We are so happy.

More rain. Green now yawned up by slate and darkness. If my heart would not grow, would not breed such eager dreams, maybe the rain could not chafe its palms. We all accept the good agony of a heart's sprawling expansion, though it sometimes makes to burst the chest apart.
Oh. That is why we grow bigger, isn't it?
If we could not, would our frightened, brittle child-bones crush the thrumming soul? Or would the heart grow like cancer and force the indolent frame apart? The frame that would not say goodbye, at war with itself.

My lane is a pale blue horseshoe in the grass. Rain trots down the gutter and asks again:
Won't you say goodbye?

Will it hurt? I don't like to hurt.
Will I be lonely? I can't bear to be alone.
Will I ever get it back?
But the rain has only one double-edged sword: away, remain. It is my choice to let us grow or to make us suffocate in a body ill-shaped for the shape of our souls. If I say goodbye, if They never come back, will I miss Them? Will other days and people and times come to fill the emptiness They left? And will the day arrive when "remain" will have become too small a word for my life? And will They have to say "away" to me?

Down, down comes the mist and all glistens in the gloaming. Maybe, soon, I could say goodbye.

My blisters cool in the rain.

Away, away, but you: remain.

And somehow it's enough.

Monday, March 9, 2015

Born Out of the Common Cold

Who has not heard the saying, "Misery loves company?" Furthermore, who has not found it to be quite true? Last week, Elisabeth Foley gave me her cold over Twitter. It started when I innocently inquired after her health and she responded with equal innocence...


....which soon grew more sinister:


Yes, I caught her cold over Twitter. Since this was obviously her fault, I challenged the little lady to a battle of words. Length? Under 1500 words. Subject matter? The common cold. We designed a hashtag (#secondinkpen), rolled up our sleeves, and got to work. We documented this work on Twitter...and it began to attract attention:


And because my battle-piece ended up amusing and worked as an antidote to my cold by allowing me to laugh and forget my misery, I thought I would share it with all of you today. Thoroughly cured of my cold (and wishing all the best to Elisabeth), I give to you

The Sneeze-Piece.

“My dear Edwin, you cannot possibly attend the opera looking like...”
Edwin resented the bit of sentence Gwyneth left off. Did she not think him man enough to stand it? “Looking like what, exactly?”
Her eyes crinkled at him. “Like a particularly bland cat who has just been dragged through a particularly colorful alleyway.”
“I am berfectly fine,” he beeped through congestion stacked tighter than the Great Wall.
“But you aren’t, darling. You’re quite ill, really.”
“I won’t let you go by yourself.” Avoiding all “m’s” and “p’s,” Edwin found, restored his dignity. “What’ll beople think?”
Oh dear. That was short-lived.
He shifted a bit to see his beloved’s face. “Us only buried three bonths and barely hobe from the honeyboon...”
“If you mean that we’ve been married only three months and barely home from our honeymoon you ought to say so. I fear you’ll give Society the idea that we’ve died and are rotting away someplace six feet under.” Gwyneth came to him. Her violet evening dress was quite becoming as a lap blanket.
“I love you quite as much as ever, though,” she murmured.
“Even if my dose is swollen?”
Gwyneth considered that engorged appendage with her head to one side. Edwin studied the dimple in her chin and thought about kissing it. That would require lifting his head off the pillows and, quite frankly, wasn’t worth the bother.
“Your nose looks perfectly normal, darling,” she pronounced.
“It’s hideously swollen.”
“No.” Gwyneth straightened. “Quite normal.”
“Dash it all, woban! Do you bean to tell be that my dose is always this...elephantine?”
“What a bear you are when you’re ill! I do wish your mother had told me. She might at least have warned me what happens to my husband when set upon by the common cold.”
There was nothing common, Edwin felt, about this cold. Gwyneth was a delightful bride. Most delightful bride in all of New York with the profile of a Gibson Girl beside. But she hadn’t an idea about how he suffered under stodged-up nasal passages and scratchy throats. She laughed at him when all he required was a little consideration. And she wouldn’t kiss him.
“Won’t you kiss me?” he mewled, rather kitten-like.
Gwyneth peeped to the hall. “Did you hear something? I thought perhaps Nellie Grace had left fishheads on the doorstep again. Stray cats make the most terrible noises.”
Low. That’s what that was. Edwin did not want the notice of someone who was determined to make him look unreasonable. No kisses. No sympathy. What a bride. What domestic fol-de-rol this was, lying on their rented settee with his aching head on a wondrously stiff pillow that only allowed the throbbing to throb harder.
Edwin watched Gwyneth put her pretty white arms into the silken sleeves of her wrap. “And I subbose you’ll go and have a ball at the obera without me?”
One glove on, then the other. “You wouldn’t rather I stay here and be miserable too?”
Well, if he had to put paint to it, that was exactly what he’d rather. Edwin moaned and threw his right arm over his eyes. “Just go. If you cobe hobe and I’ve caught pneumonia, you’ll be sorry you ever left my side.”
Gwyneth smiled and pecked his cheek. “You can’t catch pneumonia, baby-dearest. It develops.”
If he had it to do over again, Edwin thought he oughtn’t to have married a nurse. Horrific, being ill and having the weaker sex lord her intellect over you. Like little Tin-Can Harry sending a left-hook into the heavy-weight champ after a bigger fighter had already knocked the champ down. A fellow would never do it. But he wouldn’t expect Gwyneth to know it. She was natively American after all, and a femme.
Gwyneth, who had taken up a crow’s nest position at the window-seat, brightened. “Sal’s here. I’m off.”
“Goodbye!” he fog-horned at her retreating (and very good) silhouette.
Gwyneth didn’t say goodbye. Not even out the door and she’d already forgot him. Blind the germs. Colds were obnoxious beyond compare. Some chap ought to write Congress a letter. Wasn’t that the way in this sneeze-ridden colony? Couldn’t President Wilson make a law announcing colds as acts of treason? Edwin kicked the far arm of the settee with his heels and brewed a fresh pot of mischief to drink.

* * * *

“Dellie! Dellie!”
Far from deaf--in fact, quite as sharp-eared as any New York domestic--it took Nellie Grace several moments of the frightening bellows to realize the sounds were being made by Mr. Edwin and intended to convey the idea of her name. She scuttled into the front parlor.
“Yes, Mr. Edwin?”
“To which of New York’s under-rate theatres did my wife intend to bake her way?”
“Wallack’s Theatre, I believe, Mr. Edwin.”
“An obera?”
“Yes, Mr. Edwin.”
Her employer groaned with the rattle of an underground rail system. “It could dot have been a cobedy, could it, Dellie? Obera. It had to be obera. And she sbeaks of alley-cats.”
Unsure how to respond, Nellie employed the respectful bob-and-nod drilled into her head by her mother, who had also been a servant among New York’s elite:
“When in doubt, Nellie, keep your mouth closed.”
“Dellie?”
“Yes, Mr. Edwin?”
“Fetch me my hat and greatcoat.”
“I hope I brushed them well enough last time, Mr. Edwin.”
“What the dev--oh, I’m dot here to insbect your work, Dellie. I am going out.”
“Aren’t you ill, Mr. Edwin?”
“A woban with a cold...why she looks bositively beastly. Sobething about their doses...” Mr. Edwin gestured to his beaconing nose thoughtfully. “Bakes theb look ridiculous. Dark circles under their eyes...gravel in their voices. Hideous. But the benfolk, Dellie. They have better constitutions than that. We rebain...attractive in all states ob health.”
Nellie bit her lip and tried to reconcile Mr. Edwin’s haggard appearance with his speech. Bob-and-nod. “I’ll get the hat and coat, Mr. Edwin.”

* * * *
When one does not know Italian and has dropped one’s translation somewhere beneath the seat of the sizeable woman in the row next, an opera soon grows dull.
Gwyneth beat upon her knee with the stem of her opera-glass. Wouldn’t Edwin roast her if she admitted her unspeakable boredom? Their seats were cheap and so far away that only the fat soprano showed up to any effect against the Far-Eastern backdrops. The lead male was quite swallowed up and of no more notice than a stage-curtain tassel. If Edwin were here they could whisper behind his translation. He would never do something as unforgivable as dropping his booklet.
“Sal,” she whispered, hoping for a clandestine answer such as, “Oh gracious, how dull. Let’s bail and get ices instead.” But Sal had disappeared on one of her frequent trips to the powder room to perfect her gauzy reflection.
Gwyneth sank a little deeper into her chair. It would have been kinder to stay back for Edwin’s sake. She hadn’t been married so long that the needs of her husband were topmost in her mind. On nights like this it was shockingly easy to forget that she was married to a man who yowled over trifling colds and wanted petting for it. She tried to forget it’d been her cold first.
“Poor Ed.”
Someone down the row made a faint disturbance which crawled up the dark length of seats until Gwyneth made out a man clad in evening dress. He cast about for a moment, clamped eyes on Sal’s seat, and beelined it.
Gwyneth might have bothered to warn him the seat was in use but if Sal wanted to play Jack-in-the-box she could jolly well afford to lose her seat. Besides--the new man must be amusing if he thought himself free to uproot an entire row mid-opera. She’d hazard her chances.
The fat soprano rent the theatre with a note not unlike that of a canary with a cat’s claw upon its trachea. Gwyneth winced. She recalled the translation mentioning “The Death of Ariadne.” Was this it? Sounded deadly enough
The newcomer shuffled his feet, sniffed twice, took out a rumpled pocket-square and applied it to his nose.
There was some fumbling onstage. The soprano staggered forward. Her curtain-tassel opposite dutifully stumbled after her. Someone (a lump whom Gwyneth had formerly taken for a sort of chair) held up a sultan’s knife. Following this touching display of familial drama and a last semi-musical shriek, the house fell silent.
So ridiculous silent as if they’d all been struck to the heart.

Gwyneth wondered if she had got by accident into a comic opera and turned to Sal to say so before realizing her companion was not Sal at all but that gentleman who had not stopped making garrulous noises in his throat and nose since his admission.
“Bless me, what a row,” the man croaked. And in the darkness that was no longer silent, he gave a petulant sneeze undeniably Edwin’s.
“Got a translation?” Edwin asked when his arm had got comfortably around both Gwendolyn’s astonishment and her waist.
She nestled into his rackety-sounding chest. “Dropped it.”
“Crikey,” he remarked. “Rather have ices?”


Hope that gave you a laugh, my readers, and may you soon recover from this (admittedly helpful) daylight-saving drama. I think I managed all right, though a full day out in the sun soaking up loads of Vitamin D certainly helped the matter. Here's to Spring arriving. I am ready for its full embrace.

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Shig Cobb or The Fairy Mumbler

January (thus far) has not been my biggest word-count month. Most spare hours (and there haven't been many) have been spent writing and rewriting my Cottleston Pie paraphernalia like synposes and query letters. Not the most delightful of tasks. I have written absolutely nothing in the next Vivi & Farnham mystery but as soon as I get back in town after my mini vacation to a married friend's, I intend to dig back in. I do, however seem to have a genius for bothering in other stories that I really ought not to be looking at. First there was Darley Coom, the story that begins on a train out of London. I feathered about in that a little more this month...and now I can't find what came of it. This probably means that I wrote it by hand on an obscure piece of paper and will never find it again. *huff* The other night I felt like writing but not writing in Scotch'd the Snakes because I hadn't worked back up to it. What came out of this mood was "Shig Cobb" or "The Fairy Mumbler," and I am unreasonably attached to the one-thousand words that make up its opening scene. Sometime I will finish it...

I even dedicated the first painting with my new watercolors to this scrap.

Few people—if any—believed in fairies those days. The fairies themselves, perhaps, hardly believed, which merely shows how far ignorance can go, left to bite its own hindquarters.
When milk curdled in the cool-sweating dairy, Goody Lindsay invoked curses on heat and drought. When the largest hay-crop went moldy all in one night—and that not even a damp one—Farmer Faggot shook his fist and bemoaned the heavy dew. No one, of course, suggested fairy-mischief, because fairies didn't exist. Hadn't for years. Never had, mayhap.
There was, however, one person quite concerned with the existence-or-not of fairies. His name was Shig and he was a small thing with hands like corncobs and a crumpled left shoulder, and shoes too big for his feet so that wherever he went, he shuffled.
“Daft Shig,” the villagers called him.
“Cobble-fist,” others spat.
“Run along, Cobb.”
“Cob-hand.”
“Shig-Corn.”
So early on in age—perhaps five years, perhaps seven—Shig received a surname: the first gift of his life, beyond that gift of life to begin with. Shig Cobb: fairy-mumbler. The fairy-mumbler part had not come into his story yet. Not officially. It was there, at any rate, but not recognized and appointed as it would be later on, for Shig Cobb, along with his other misfortunes, was mute. Mumbling to anyone, fairies or people, seemed out of the question.
“Won't you speak, Shig?” the baker, whom he worked for, had used to ask him.
He would ask this question every day while pounding out the dough, fat and white like himself, but Shig never spoke. Perhaps he would not. Perhaps he could not. It was difficult to say in the case of such a quiet fellow as him, and so the baker aired the invitation daily.
“Your hands, Shig...what happened to them?” the baker ventured to ask one cloying, hot afternoon in late August. He was not an ill-natured fellow, this baker, just rather nosy, and it irked him to no end to employ and care for a boy with lumpety-crumpety hands and not have the satisfaction of at least knowing what had caused it.
Shig fiercened and narrowed his shoulder upward till they looked like a peregrine's wings, baiting for flight.
“Mind me not, boy.” The baker flumped the white, white dough over again in a floury, cumulus cloud. “Here's me thinking that if you could, you'd tell me to mind my own apron strings, and here's me thinking you'd be right.”
Ever so slightly, Shig's body slid down into its constant shrug: right shoulder lower than the hitched-up left, eyebrows arranged likewise.
“Will you be kind enough to slide these rolls into the oven and mind them while I pass a mead-y hour at the public house?”
Of course there came no answer—silly of him to look for one—but the baker watched Shig slide off his flour barrel, take the stone tray in his stumpy, bumpy hands, and ease it into the oven as gently as could be wished.
“They'll rest easy, won't they, under your care?” He eyed Shig and a beetling fondness for the creature pricked behind his eyes. “I wonder, boy, do you sing to them that they rise so high? Do you save all your sweet songs and pretty words to coax my bread along? For God in Heaven knows bread never tasted better nor lasted longer than Shig's bread.”
The boy was silent. The baker was pensive. But a leathern jug of good, golden mead awaited him at the Red-Shank and before long, all thoughts of Shig and his bread were swept away in a sip of the honey-lipped mug.

As soon as the baker had gone, Shig Cobb dragged his flour barrel to the side of the oven and climbed up to watch the progress of his bread. Shig belonged to no one as far as he could tell, and probably never had. Well, if he had, he could certainly not remember any part of it, so what good was that? But as long as he made sure the dough rose and the coals marked the loaves' cheeks with kisses summer-brown, he belonged. To the bakery. To the bread. Bread did not last long, unlike clay pots or wooden chairs or many another thing. Shig was glad, in his wordless way, that he'd chosen bread. Bread must be made fresh every day. Every day, Shig belonged.
You couldn't say that about many trades.
“...do you sing to them that they rise so high?” The baker's fond question wrestled between Shig's ears and bothered him. He did not sing but he wanted to sing, and it was only just the other night that he had dreamed of singing the only song he knew—a short Latin hymn—for an audience of nodding poppies. He had sung louder and more graciously than anyone he'd ever heard—even the miller's heart-faced daughter—and the baker had called him “son,” and then he'd awakened and realized the singing was not him, but was the miller's heart-faced daughter after all on her passage river-way with the miller's dusty cow.
He had been frustrated. He'd cried.
For it was a true thing that Shig Cobb could not talk. If he stuck his tongue out and crossed his eyes and thought incredibly hard, Shig sometimes thought he could remember having been able to speak. But he had been too scared to say anything when he'd come to this village three years back, and had been too shy to say anything for a long time after that, and had finally stopped trying to say anything at all. No one wanted to talk to him, for one thing. Shig Cobb was the brunt of many jokes, but never invited to speak with the jokesters. Even the baker, lazy soul, did not expect or want answers to his clumsy questions.

So Shig did not speak and he certainly did not sing. Not ever. Not that afternoon. Instead, he perched on the flour barrel and rested his bruised knees against the warm flanks of the oven, and told himself fairy stories with the silent voice in his head that could make words and was fond of it.

There y'are. It's a small thing but a sweet one, and I wouldn't mind finishing it out, though I've no idea where it ought to go from here. This is always a delightful and slightly-frightening stage of a project. Some of my best work recently has come from not knowing what is coming up but loving the characters...think John Out-the-Window. Perhaps this unclarity will bode well for me when I rip back into Scotch'd the Snakes. Because I'm still hung up over a certain little detail of plot. I have been re-reading Anon, Sir, Anon, though, and getting back in the mood, so here's to getting back in town and buckling down to work. :)

Thursday, November 13, 2014

Darley Coom


My brother is marrying my best friend on Saturday.
I got my first ever French manicure and thus crossed something off my bucket-list.
I will be wearing a sleeveless yellow chiffon gown in an outdoor ceremony.
The weather is meant to be 40 degrees.
Obviously, it's a big week.

I took leave of my senses and my responsibility this entire week as to trying to write anything I actually intend to turn into a real book. No nannying, no writing. But I found myself with time and desire for sketching up a little bit of Nothing, and since Nothing was pleasant, I give it to you now. This thing is filed as "Darley Coom Story" and as I said, is Nothing. But it is copy-righted (I always feel that ought to be "copywritten") so no snitching it. M'kay? On a side-note, I have missed my writing-for-children and this was a sweet pause in my workaday schedule.



{Darley Coom Story by Rachel Heffington}


August 4th, 1941
Somewhere outside of London

After--long after, when rain finally drowned the too-sunny sun and he had forgotten his splinter--Oliver thought he would remember precisely how his mother looked when he was put on the train and taken away from his family with a lot of other little children who didn’t want to go either. Mother looked like a doll whose face had been broken and put back together the wrong way. Her face, Oliver thought, had never looked so like a smashed teacup. And everyone knew a mother’s face was not supposed to look like a teacup in any state. But hers did, and the clock struck noon as she pressed him too hard to her coat and ran her hand over and over the top his hair, even while the rest of the family was saying goodbye, and then hugged him once more.
The day, as we have said, was not rainy or misty or fog-ridden as anyone would expect when such things were happening. It was actually a rather wonderful day, weather-wise. Oliver found himself angry at a little bit of everything in the world, including the weather.
He was fond of lists, was Oliver, and when things happened to him, he liked to order them inside his head. It was really unfortunate he did not have a pen and paper. There was nothing to write with. Not even a stub of pencil, which was unfortunate, and the only paper in the train car was pinned to their clothes in small, scared-looking squares that had the children’s names and destinations printed on them in a frightened hand. Oliver might have asked one of the three other children in his car for a pencil, but when he thought of opening his mouth and breaking the awful silence that had accompanied them now for half an hour out of London, he turned bashful. Thus, Oliver’s Unwritten List of Bad Things that day grew longer with each moment the train chugged away from his mother and father and big sister, Colleen and the horrible sunny platform at Paddington Station. At the exact moment the train passed under an extra-long railway tunnel and got frightfully dark, Oliver’s list looked like this:
  1. Leaving London
  2. Tears. I can’t cry, so the bridge of my nose hurts
  3. Sunshine when it should be raining
  4. Sunshine and having to be on this beastly train
  5. Railway tunnels
  6. Railways in general
  7. Germans, because they make bombs.
  8. Bombs, because they make me leave London
  9. No paper
  10. Or pen
If he thought longer about it, Oliver suspected he could come up with a few extra things to write down, but the list seemed long enough and the train had passed out of the tunnel and life was moving on in its horrid way.
“Number eleven,” he muttered, “Darley Coom.”
He picked at the splinter he'd got from running his palm over a stack of wooden crates. What was Darley Coom? Oliver had a vague notion of its being a place somewhere in the countryside where he should be safe from the Germans and their bombs. At least, that’s what his mother and father had told him. Not, he thought grimly, that it was much good now believing what his mother and father told him. They’d told him his family would never be apart, not even if a hundred Nazis were shouting on the doorstep, and look who was steaming out of London at this very second, headed for an unknown place with a strange name.
“Want to play cards?”
Oliver frowned at the girl who sat across from him with a stack of beaten-looking playing cards in her grubby fist. “Not much.”
“Come on. You’re not doing anything sitting there, are you?”
“I was thinking,” Oliver said. Then it seemed to him that he sounded a bit of a bear, so he tried again: “I’m not much good at anything but old-maid and that’s tiresome.”
“I can teach you poker,” the girl said.
This was unexpected. Children weren’t supposed to know how to play poker. His curiosity aroused, Oliver shrugged and turned his knees away from the wall of the train car and toward the little girl.
“I’m Mary Harrell,” she said with smile. “But you can call me Violet.”
“Why on earth would I call you Violet if your name’s Mary?”
This time she frowned. “You can call me Mary but I won’t promise to answer. Mary’s an ugly name and it belongs to my aunt who is an ugly aunt.”
“Oh.” He could see why it was to be ‘Violet’ after all. “I’m Oliver Hood. And where did you learn to play poker?”
“Dilly learned me.”
“Taught you, Violet.” The boy who looked to be a few years older than Oliver, twelve or thirteen or something, tossed an already-worn book aside. “Dillon Harrell. Vi’s brother. Older brother. And if you’re going to be a prude and refuse to play, tell me quick before I waste my breath explaining.”
“I’ll learn,” he snapped. Under the bashfulness and the anger, Oliver glowed with embarrassed over how difficult he was being. At least the fourth person in their unwilling company was being rude in a polite way. It was another girl and she sat beside Oliver and said absolutely nothing, nor looked at them. So what if she seemed unable to make friends--at least she didn’t blurt out snappish things all the time as he seemed to be doing. The girl sat quite alone in her corner of the train car with her rather grubby feet propped up against a threadbare carpet-bag.
“Will you play?” Oliver asked.
Violet and Dillon turned quizzical eyes to him. Oliver lifted one shoulder and inched nearer to the silent girl. “I say, will you play with us?”
The girl would not talk. Oliver could see she had been crying and he felt good to know someone could cry if he could not. But he did not like to see anyone upset, much less little girls, so he put a hand on her shoulder.
“Here now,” he said, “let’s dry you up and have a go at learning poker.”
At this, the girl darted a half-curious, half-reproachful look at the Harrell siblings and slid out from under Oliver’s hand.
“Oh, leave the dripper alone,” Dillon said. “If she’s not up for the game, she won’t play worth snuff anyhow.”
Violet shuffled her deck. The cards slapped against each other like a small crowd applauding. Like Oliver and his family had applauded when the soldiers in their neighborhood shipped out for Germany. Oliver watched the silent girl twitch when Violet flipped the deck over and shuffled again. Violet could do bridge, he noticed, and he wondered when his hands might grow large enough to learn the trick.
“Won’t you play?” he begged the girl.
She shook her head but she was looking at them now, at least. Her eyes were a funny silvery-green color and her hair was dark and heavy and cut level with her chin.
“So what you want to know first,” Dillon said, “Is what ‘ante’ means.”
Oliver, who knew a little Latin though he was only nine and half, perked up. “It means ‘before’, doesn’t it?”
“Well look what we have here! A cute little scholar. In poker, goose-head, it means the amount of money we’re all betting with.”
“But I don’t have any money.”
“Neither do we, silly,” Violet said. “Which is why we use pins.” She worked the pin out of the square of paper stuck to the front of her red sweater and cast it into the cap Dillon offered up for the occasion.
“One pin for each of us,” she said. “All in or don’t play.”
Oliver took his paper off, tucked it carefully under his left knee, and deposited his pin into the cap. “What’ll happen now?”
“One of us will win all the pins--and it’ll probably by Dilly, so don’t be surprised if that pin is gone for good.”
“But...” Oliver began to wonder if there was a reason children weren’t supposed to play poker. Violet and Dillon did not seem the most well-bred of all creatures. “Okay. Fine.”
“And the second thing you’ll want to learn--”
But before Dillon could get any further, the train-brakes shrieked, there was a grinding noise, a chewing noise, and Oliver and the silent girl were thrown forward into the laps of the Harrell siblings.
“Great horse whips,” Dillon swore softly.
Violet grunted and pushed Oliver off her body. “What the blazes did you do that for? You’ve made me drop the cards!”
“I didn’t do anything,” Oliver protested.
“Come off it, Vi,” Dillon said. “There’s something wrong with the train.” He stood and though the train still swayed from side to side, it was going slower and slower and slower as if limping. Finally, with a hiss and a groan, it ceased motion altogether.
“Wonder if the engine’s blown,” he muttered. Then: “Crikey, we’re lopsided.”
They were. The silent girl’s side of the train tilted sadly downward and she had wedged herself and her carpetbag farther into the corner than seemed possible. Dillon pressed his face to the window-pane and fogged it up with his heavy breathing. Violet wedged herself beside him and tip-toed.
Because she wasn’t looking and he wanted it back, Oliver rescued his pin from Violet’s cap. He stuck his paper tag back onto his shirt. No more poker if there was something wrong with the train. The silent girl shivered even though, because of the angle, the sun poured down from his window into her lap.
“It must have gone off the track,” Dillon said. “That’s just peachy.” He stumbled back to his seat and sat sideways so he could prop his feet uphill against Dillon’s wall. Violet perched on top of his shoes and he didn’t seem to mind.
“So the second thing you’ll need to know,” he began.
“Wait.” Oliver stared from Violet to Dillon and back again. “We can’t play poker now.”
Violet wrinkled her nose. “Ummm why, please?”
“Because there’s been an accident.”
Dillon bounced Violet off his feet and sat up. He leaned forward. His eyes glittered. “I don’t think there’s ever a good reason not to play poker.’ He settled back in his position. “Unless maybe someone died.”
What answer was he supposed to make to that? Oliver had never met anyone like these two. “I just don’t feel like playing.”
“Okay, but I’m warning you it’ll be an hour before anyone comes to tell us what’s wrong.”
“In an emergency?”
Dillon shrugged. “Didn’t you notice we were put on nearly at the end of the train? It’s going to be ages.”
So the Harrells played cards by themselves and Oliver and the silent girl sat by themselves, and the sun continued to pour down through the right-hand windows.
A fly got in and pestered them.
A thrush banged into the window and flew off in zig-zags.
Somewhere down the line they heard voices, and for a moment Oliver thought perhaps he’d proved Dillon wrong and they’d be rescued before an hour was up, but the voices faded off. Against all common sense, Oliver felt himself growing sleepier and sleepier, and as his head grew heavy his knees tired of bracing himself so he’d stay on his side of the bench. Oliver began to slide toward the silent girl. With every ounce of muscle left in him--and there was not too much to begin with--he wished to leave her alone. She didn’t want to be bothered. She didn’t want a sweaty, disheveled boy melting toward her like a slug from the back garden.
“It’s all right,” the silent girl said without turning her head.
For a moment, the idea that she’d read his mind overcame the tiredness of his knees and he was able to keep upright with shame, but pretty soon he started to slide again.
“I’m sorry,” he said, as their legs collided.
“I said it’s all right.” This time the girl shifted. Not a lot, because he was so close now that their shoulders were touching, but enough so that he looked into her eyes. She was probably ten, he thought, and un-pretty in a way he found fascinating. Maybe it was the blunt square of her hair around her pert chin and the way it was too straight and too thick. And her eyes didn’t match the rest of her. They were like aggies: light and a swirl of too many colors. Marble-eyes.
“I’m Oliver Hood.” Her shoulder was sharp. It dug into him.
“Agatha Samantha Roberta Brooks. I wish I hadn’t left London.”
“Like I said: a dripper.” Dillon sniffed. “I told Violet we’d get stuck in a car with one.”
“Would you stop?” said Oliver. “I wish we’d never left too.”
“You lot are babies. We’re glad to be leaving.” Dillon laid down his hand of cards. “A royal flush, by the way, Vi. London has nothing interesting in it. You go to school, you come home, you do your lessons, you go to bed. Day in, day out, all the same. And holidays are no better, you know. There’s absolutely nothing worse than Aldersgate when everyone else is gone away and you’re the only ones left in town. Besides--who wants to wait there to get smashed flat by the Blitz when you could be having a jolly time in the country?”
“Don’t you miss your parents at all?”
Violet fished the remaining two pins out of Dillon’s cap and handed them to her brother. “Papa got himself killed in France and Mum is either working or sick.”
“Or dead,” Dillon said.
Oliver’s gut wrenched. “What do you mean?”
“Well, that’s why they’re making us leave, isn’t it? So we don’t get blown up?”
“Oh, right.”
An image of his mother’s broken-teacup face shattered on the floor seared itself into Oliver’s mind. He had not realized that while he would be safe, the rest of his family would be in danger. That the reason they had sent him off was because it was getting more and more dangerous each day. He had known, of course, about the bombs. But knowing and realizing were two different things.
Agatha Samantha Roberta Brooks realized. She had shivered and he’d wondered why. Fear, cold as a snowball in the face, slid down his collar. He cowered in the sunlight feeling impossibly hot and freakishly cold all at once.
The door burst open. “Get your things and hurry up.”
The owner of the voice stepped into the aisle and his head looked to Oliver like a potato, a cabbage, and two black olives arranged into a knobby face. It was a comical face, if ugly.
“Hurry now. Train’s gone off its bally rails and all kiddies are to be distrib’ted round the farms nearby till Railroad sorts it out. Come along, come along.”
The conductor (his hat told the secret in bright brass letters) bustled them out of the car. Dillon and Violet were paperless, Oliver noticed. How they were ever to be delivered to the proper place without them was a thing Oliver could not bother to worry over now. But everyone seemed to have kept the little cardboard boxes around their necks. Inside each box was a gas-mask which would be utterly useless until it was important, and then it would save their lives, the rail-road ladies had said.
“Your lot’s to go to Hilly Mead for th’night. Two miles up that road.” He pointed a fat finger to a dusty-looking lane on the left. “Big white house, black shutters, red cows. They told me you can’t miss it.”
“You mean we’re to walk?” Violet asked.
The conductor sighed. “Your legs haven’t been blown off, have they? Soldiers is fighting all ‘crost Europe and you’re fretting about walking two higgledy-piggledy miles in flat country. Keep calm and--”
“Carry on--Churchill’s orders. Let’s go, Violet. You drippers need help carrying your truck? No? Well then, onward men.”
Dillon and Violet marched off. Oliver slung his satchel across his chest and followed. Agatha Samantha Roberta Brooks took her carpet-bag in one hand and came last of all. In her other hand she held a birdcage with a real little finch in it. Oliver hadn’t remembered seeing the birdcage the entire way here...where had it been? What if he’d accidentally stepped on it when the train came off the track and crushed the little bird? Well he hadn’t, and that was a relief.
Gas-mask pounding against his heart, Oliver trotted to catch up with the Harrells, and the aggie-eyed girl did the same.
Two miles to this Hilly Mead. And then Darley Coom.
London was so wretchedly far away.

***
They walked on and on and on like the Jews in Exodus, kicking up clouds of the powdery white dirt till Oliver doubled over from coughing. They’d given up trying not to kick. The chalk road puffed around them exactly as if some giant had taken a pair of erasers and clapped them together over the children’s heads.
Puffity-puff-puff-puff.
Another puff for good measure.
And another.
“We might (huff puff) try marching so our feet won’t drag,” Dillon said.
But the day suffocated around them and the road gasped for rain and the dust rose up in a sort of fog that was worse than fog.
“This is a beastly lot more than two miles,” Violet complained. Her face was red and sticky-looking and the dust had stuck in the hairs of her eyebrows.
Oliver’s gas-mask clomped against his chest with each step, his satchel slapped his thigh, and he thought he had never been thirstier. “I only wish there was a stream nearby where we could get a drink.” He coughed and spluttered from the effort of talking.
“There’s one other side of th’field looks like,” Dillon said. “But there’s cows in it...and I don’t really like cows.”
“You’re scared of cows?” Oliver looked over his shoulder at the silent girl to see if she was listening to him tease Dillon. It was daring of him, to tease the older boy.
Agatha Samantha Roberta Brooks smiled a tiny crease of a smile and Oliver felt a little less like a trampled receipt.
“How’s your bird holding up?” he asked, falling back to meet her.
She held up the cage and inspected it. “He’s quiet.”
You’re quiet.
“I don’t think he likes the dust,” the girl said.
“Well rum luck for him,” Dillon grumbled, then stopped. “Hullo. Those cows are red, aren’t they?”
They wandered to the hedge and slowly, slowly, slowly, the dust-fog cleared. When they were able to see, a low, lumpy field sprinkled-over with copper-colored cows spread out before their eyes. The herd’s hides gleamed in the late afternoon light. Here a bell tinkled, there a bell clanked. A calf lowed. A big heifer sloshed into the stream Dillon had pointed out, and such a pleasant gush burbled up around her glossy flanks that Oliver’s throat tore with a half-sob that couldn’t get out. He was so thirsty.

And obviously enough, that's as far as I'd got. As I said: a pleasant manner in which to spend some pent-up creativity. What do you think? Do you like my Darley Coom? Also, Big Hero 6 was precious. You ought to watch it.